... I suppose that's what my sister must mean when she lectures me about enjoying my life as a woman.
[Well not exactly but somewhere in space and time Elise must be crying over Alice finally getting even a portion of her words.]
You cannot control how others view you but you can control how you view yourself. As a child I wished to be a hero, a defender of justice. In time my views on what did or did not make a hero changed and yet I still wished to serve the people as I could. I have often viewed myself as a tool for the people -- some might think me larger but in my own eyes I am only there to be of service to them.
[She gestures a little, her expression thoughtful. The orphanage is thankfully in sight now and she shifts the pack on her back a bit.]
I have rarely thought of myself as a person. To not be a noble, heir to the Malvin family, Second Lieutenant or a sister but just myself? It wasn't something I could examine at home, not really.
[There's some regret in her tone at that. Who knew finding herself meant leaving her home entirely?]
You might be revered in some ways by the people here but doesn't it also follow that you can define who you are here? You are not a king here and you are not people's worshipped idol either. You can be Dimitri if you choose to be no matter how others see you.
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[Well not exactly but somewhere in space and time Elise must be crying over Alice finally getting even a portion of her words.]
You cannot control how others view you but you can control how you view yourself. As a child I wished to be a hero, a defender of justice. In time my views on what did or did not make a hero changed and yet I still wished to serve the people as I could. I have often viewed myself as a tool for the people -- some might think me larger but in my own eyes I am only there to be of service to them.
[She gestures a little, her expression thoughtful. The orphanage is thankfully in sight now and she shifts the pack on her back a bit.]
I have rarely thought of myself as a person. To not be a noble, heir to the Malvin family, Second Lieutenant or a sister but just myself? It wasn't something I could examine at home, not really.
[There's some regret in her tone at that. Who knew finding herself meant leaving her home entirely?]
You might be revered in some ways by the people here but doesn't it also follow that you can define who you are here? You are not a king here and you are not people's worshipped idol either. You can be Dimitri if you choose to be no matter how others see you.