[That's what she didn't want. She didn't want... She hated that look on his face. In the beginning, she had hated hating it, because she hadn't understood why seeing him worried or disappointed bothered her so much, yet now...
She grips his arms at first, instinctively afraid she was going to crush him until she remembers again that... she is barely eight or nine stones heavy now, and he is holding her up so easily that it's strange, it's so weird, but-
Her hands clasp his face, her own expression muddled with insecurity. But not in him. In her, and her ability to express herself, to use words even though she always felt her skills lacking. But even if its hard... She's been honest with him before. She can be honest now.]
I didn't feel like I had to do it for you.
[... Simple. Clear. (It was clear, right? As clear as how much she wanted to kiss him because they were so close and she had a bad habit now of using kisses to stall or distract him when she felt like she didn't know what to say.)]
But I... if I had to get used to this weird body so that I would be convincing during missions...
[Sorry, humans. Weird... because it wasn't her natural body, and there weren't enough organs, and her senses felt all dull, not... because humans were weird- !]
Then I want... I want to do human things with you, too. Things we can't normally do.
[She only has one eye that she is willing to let anyone see (or let anyone else be seen by), but that one... is soft with a desire not to hurt. To be understood, despite her fumbles. To make this strange thing into something that instead... could be made good if they did it together.]
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She grips his arms at first, instinctively afraid she was going to crush him until she remembers again that... she is barely eight or nine stones heavy now, and he is holding her up so easily that it's strange, it's so weird, but-
Her hands clasp his face, her own expression muddled with insecurity. But not in him. In her, and her ability to express herself, to use words even though she always felt her skills lacking. But even if its hard... She's been honest with him before. She can be honest now.]
I didn't feel like I had to do it for you.
[... Simple. Clear. (It was clear, right? As clear as how much she wanted to kiss him because they were so close and she had a bad habit now of using kisses to stall or distract him when she felt like she didn't know what to say.)]
But I... if I had to get used to this weird body so that I would be convincing during missions...
[Sorry, humans. Weird... because it wasn't her natural body, and there weren't enough organs, and her senses felt all dull, not... because humans were weird- !]
Then I want... I want to do human things with you, too. Things we can't normally do.
[She only has one eye that she is willing to let anyone see (or let anyone else be seen by), but that one... is soft with a desire not to hurt. To be understood, despite her fumbles. To make this strange thing into something that instead... could be made good if they did it together.]