Right from the first words Bondrewd says, he's stunned. His eyes widen a little, lips slightly parted as Bondrewd elaborates. Goes on. Throws all of these questions about innocence at him, and shit, was Amos ever innocent in that case? It's all he can do but divert his gaze to the elbow Bondrewd has taken and start walking, as if on autopilot. West, and then north. Towards his house.
The question mark makes him think of a ship malfunctioning so badly it shuts down. Is that what this is? He's never seen it before — not on any ship he flew on, and not with Bondrewd. He... doesn't know what to do with this, but walk.
And eventually, ] I know I had to kill Lucien too. I did it. [ And for the first time had absolutely rocketed his discord up. Became a complete fucking mess. Started to literally unravel. There's a defensive edge to his tone, now. ] I applied it.
But I didn't want to.
[ It's nearly a growl. Amos looks to stop himself. Correct himself. This is just... how Bondrewd is... Right... ]
I don't know when I stopped being a kid. I don't think innocence has anything to do with it. Just... [ He waves his free hand, an agitated motion. He needs to cut it out. ] ... they don't deserve bad shit happening to them.
[ A beat. ]
And when we make the new world, I'm going to make sure that's the case.
[ His voice is flat. Final. Amos dreams of farms with fresh food and clean air and water, wide open spaces and an abundance of resources to go around for everyone. Everyone there, everyone who will come after.
But more than that, he dreams of a world where no kid gets hurt. Ever.
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Right from the first words Bondrewd says, he's stunned. His eyes widen a little, lips slightly parted as Bondrewd elaborates. Goes on. Throws all of these questions about innocence at him, and shit, was Amos ever innocent in that case? It's all he can do but divert his gaze to the elbow Bondrewd has taken and start walking, as if on autopilot. West, and then north. Towards his house.
The question mark makes him think of a ship malfunctioning so badly it shuts down. Is that what this is? He's never seen it before — not on any ship he flew on, and not with Bondrewd. He... doesn't know what to do with this, but walk.
And eventually, ] I know I had to kill Lucien too. I did it. [ And for the first time had absolutely rocketed his discord up. Became a complete fucking mess. Started to literally unravel. There's a defensive edge to his tone, now. ] I applied it.
But I didn't want to.
[ It's nearly a growl. Amos looks to stop himself. Correct himself. This is just... how Bondrewd is... Right... ]
I don't know when I stopped being a kid. I don't think innocence has anything to do with it. Just... [ He waves his free hand, an agitated motion. He needs to cut it out. ] ... they don't deserve bad shit happening to them.
[ A beat. ]
And when we make the new world, I'm going to make sure that's the case.
[ His voice is flat. Final. Amos dreams of farms with fresh food and clean air and water, wide open spaces and an abundance of resources to go around for everyone. Everyone there, everyone who will come after.
But more than that, he dreams of a world where no kid gets hurt. Ever.
He tilts his head. ]
My place is just up the road here.