[Why can't I let myself fall? Why can't there be any imperfections? Why am I not allowed to fail?
Because you already are a failure. There's no room to go lower. That's right, isn't it? She barely has the stomach to be a mage. She has to cut herself off from having deep relationships because she can't handle the thought of having to wipe herself from the memory of friends. She can't bear the reality of being vulnerable to someone only to have her heart broken when she's the used and not the user. Rin Tohsaka is weak, softhearted and nothing but a series of masks put on to fool others.
Furious, she turns stands abruptly from her seat. Her hands grip the table of sweets and tea in front of her, and she flips it in a rage. Once turned over she digs her heel into the underside of the table so the squelching noise of the frosting, tea, and confections can be heard.]
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Because you already are a failure. There's no room to go lower. That's right, isn't it? She barely has the stomach to be a mage. She has to cut herself off from having deep relationships because she can't handle the thought of having to wipe herself from the memory of friends. She can't bear the reality of being vulnerable to someone only to have her heart broken when she's the used and not the user. Rin Tohsaka is weak, softhearted and nothing but a series of masks put on to fool others.
Furious, she turns stands abruptly from her seat. Her hands grip the table of sweets and tea in front of her, and she flips it in a rage. Once turned over she digs her heel into the underside of the table so the squelching noise of the frosting, tea, and confections can be heard.]