[ cassian really doesn't fucking know what he's done for gen, and now amos, to accuse him of being a good person. it's one thing to lie with intent, and another entirely to accidentally bring multiple people to believe a falsehood. so when he momentarily looks stricken, it's completely genuine.
but luckily, amos doesn't linger on that point; and so cassian tries to relax as much as the other man clearly has. tries to focus on that answer. because it makes sense, in its ways. it makes sense to amos, at least. the fact that creating a new world might mean destroying all of the old having never really occurred to him, bothered him; the fact that it being brought up now is as easily swatted away as a cloud fly. amos isn't bothered by the idea. of course he isn't.
silco had mentioned the possibility to cassian almost upon his arrival in kenos, and it's always haunted him. always made him second-guess his commitment to zenith, even when he was part of it. he doesn't know if he thinks their galaxy can be saved, but the ones that are left — could he kill them for his dream of a crushed empire?
amos could. like a mercy kill. and maybe that is what yima would be doing, but they have no certainty of that. no certainty of the better future she promises. he doesn't bother saying as much; it would wash over amos just as much as the rest, maybe insult him by insulting his faction and his cause. it isn't the instigating reason why he switched to meridian, but it is part of the reason why he wanted to. truth enough, for this conversation. ]
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but luckily, amos doesn't linger on that point; and so cassian tries to relax as much as the other man clearly has. tries to focus on that answer. because it makes sense, in its ways. it makes sense to amos, at least. the fact that creating a new world might mean destroying all of the old having never really occurred to him, bothered him; the fact that it being brought up now is as easily swatted away as a cloud fly. amos isn't bothered by the idea. of course he isn't.
silco had mentioned the possibility to cassian almost upon his arrival in kenos, and it's always haunted him. always made him second-guess his commitment to zenith, even when he was part of it. he doesn't know if he thinks their galaxy can be saved, but the ones that are left — could he kill them for his dream of a crushed empire?
amos could. like a mercy kill. and maybe that is what yima would be doing, but they have no certainty of that. no certainty of the better future she promises. he doesn't bother saying as much; it would wash over amos just as much as the rest, maybe insult him by insulting his faction and his cause. it isn't the instigating reason why he switched to meridian, but it is part of the reason why he wanted to. truth enough, for this conversation. ]
I'm sorry. I should've said something to you.