[ It feels like Amos is always just missing Kaeya because Kaeya is deliberately avoiding the other man. After what went down at the Tree of Life, where he knows he was the main reason why things escalated to the point they reached, he doesn't feel like he deserves to be around any of them or else he might make a mess of things once more.
This will take time, he knows, he's been through this once already, but once things fall into place, it will all become routine. Suddenly, it'll be much easier to stay away from others because he knows that it's for the best. It doesn't matter if it's going to be unbearably lonely— he'll weather through it just like he always has.
Sensing Amos' anger and irritation through this sudden but tenuous connection of theirs is what Kaeya uses to avoid him precisely. Whenever it felt like Amos is closing in on him, he moves elsewhere, finding a different place to take shelter from the worse effects of Discord. Not that he can keep doing this forever, of course, because sooner or later, it becomes too much to handle.
It doesn't help that he's stayed at Springstar for far longer than he should have. His exhaustion and discomfort are bone-deep at this point, leaving him defenseless while he takes shelter in an alleyway that is covered by shadows.
This turns out to be his first mistake. ]
... Amos.
[ The flood of relief that comes from the other man just makes him feel ten times worse. His guilt, his regrets, they all come straight to the surface, making themselves known amongst the noise.
Despite it all, Kaeya smiles like he always does, feigning innocence. ]
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This will take time, he knows, he's been through this once already, but once things fall into place, it will all become routine. Suddenly, it'll be much easier to stay away from others because he knows that it's for the best. It doesn't matter if it's going to be unbearably lonely— he'll weather through it just like he always has.
Sensing Amos' anger and irritation through this sudden but tenuous connection of theirs is what Kaeya uses to avoid him precisely. Whenever it felt like Amos is closing in on him, he moves elsewhere, finding a different place to take shelter from the worse effects of Discord. Not that he can keep doing this forever, of course, because sooner or later, it becomes too much to handle.
It doesn't help that he's stayed at Springstar for far longer than he should have. His exhaustion and discomfort are bone-deep at this point, leaving him defenseless while he takes shelter in an alleyway that is covered by shadows.
This turns out to be his first mistake. ]
... Amos.
[ The flood of relief that comes from the other man just makes him feel ten times worse. His guilt, his regrets, they all come straight to the surface, making themselves known amongst the noise.
Despite it all, Kaeya smiles like he always does, feigning innocence. ]
Whatever do you mean?