[At no point does Hayame stop hating herself for breaking down in front of someone else. If he had her shard in his hand, as she had his, that would be obvious... or perhaps it is. She can't raise her head, she can't stand to let him actually see her weeping with his eyes even though he can hear it plain as day, feel it as his shoulder grows damp. She wants to clutch at something, but she can't, it would be even weaker seeming that what she's already doing, and he-
Presses his lips to temple as if she was someone who deserved to be treated with affection and warmth, when she has tried so godsdamned hard to make herself instead into an instrument of cold revenge and unbreakable honor. Hadn't she taken the eye of the demon who had taken hers? Had she not killed the traitors to Meridian who had jeopardized their chaces at winning the Oracle? Had she not-]
Take it back--
[The words are wet with tears, but she chokes them out anyway, blindly groping for his hand to try and force his shard back into it. It's too much, to feel him at her chest so close to hers (and Liem's). She should never have asked for it in the first place. Their communions are already bleeding together, she needs him to condemn her for her weakness, nor feel him forgive it-]
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Presses his lips to temple as if she was someone who deserved to be treated with affection and warmth, when she has tried so godsdamned hard to make herself instead into an instrument of cold revenge and unbreakable honor. Hadn't she taken the eye of the demon who had taken hers? Had she not killed the traitors to Meridian who had jeopardized their chaces at winning the Oracle? Had she not-]
Take it back--
[The words are wet with tears, but she chokes them out anyway, blindly groping for his hand to try and force his shard back into it. It's too much, to feel him at her chest so close to hers (and Liem's). She should never have asked for it in the first place. Their communions are already bleeding together, she needs him to condemn her for her weakness, nor feel him forgive it-]
Take it back...