perhaps not the method, but he knew he probably wasn't walking away the moment he saw hayame. God is dying — at the end of everything, with a dead Tree and no power — and he isn't afraid. he'll return, like always; john is sure of that. the price he'd paid to become what he is was too steep to allow anyone else to dictate the manner of his permanent demise. that, and the Zenith in him reminds him that he must in order to build a new and perfect world, after all.
it's excruciating, but he'll never give her the satisfaction of screaming even if his bones do. he does fight, though, clawing at her arm and hand with the sort of ferocity that is born of sheer animal desperation. it's not going to do any good, but it's not rational. something cracks horribly, and his form goes limp before it dissolves as if all his individual atoms blew apart all at once. john gaius dies and his Shard falls to the ground at her feet. ]
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perhaps not the method, but he knew he probably wasn't walking away the moment he saw hayame. God is dying — at the end of everything, with a dead Tree and no power — and he isn't afraid. he'll return, like always; john is sure of that. the price he'd paid to become what he is was too steep to allow anyone else to dictate the manner of his permanent demise. that, and the Zenith in him reminds him that he must in order to build a new and perfect world, after all.
it's excruciating, but he'll never give her the satisfaction of screaming even if his bones do. he does fight, though, clawing at her arm and hand with the sort of ferocity that is born of sheer animal desperation. it's not going to do any good, but it's not rational. something cracks horribly, and his form goes limp before it dissolves as if all his individual atoms blew apart all at once. john gaius dies and his Shard falls to the ground at her feet. ]