[ No, what is he thinking? What is he doing! He can't single handed clear out the Blight even if he were completely devoid of its infection. Forget Springstar, he's going to die in Highstorm disallusioned. Childe shouldn't get over Zhongli's safety when he makes choices like these, but it's just like that initial panic that crossed Childe's features after disbelief upon seeing Zhongli in his corrupted mindscape. It's not willful and is simply reactive, instead. There's no point trying to convince Zhongli of reality, is there? He's completely under whatever the effects of what is influencing him. Still— ]
What the hell are you saying! You can't clear the Blight in Highstorm even temporarily by yourself, you'll die! How do you intend to get back to Springstar then, you stupid fool?!
[ He tries to avoid the whole I'm doing this to protect you ordeal but ultimately fails upon realizing it's not gong to go away just because he's trying to ignore it . It's hard to argue the sincerity here, but Childe feels repulsed— repulsed because there's a clear yearning to cling to being wanted, for someone to want to care about him to such lengths even if he can't stand the idea of being protected like this.
Of course, he wants this from Zhongli, of course it's part of what he wanted from Zhongli all along. But, like this—
(What good is it if you die... damn it!)
His grip on his weapons is so vicious that blood starts to splotch his gloved in areas of stress even as he struggles to keep his emotions in check. He needs to calm down or his discord is going to potentially tear it's ugly head. It's been a while since he's been truly departed from Zhongli beyond him being somewhere in Highstorm. How long will Zhongli be gone— No, this is bullshit, Zhongli isn't going anywhere because he's not Meridian!
He can't stop him like this, and he's not sure if he can guilt him. What's left after that?
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What the hell are you saying! You can't clear the Blight in Highstorm even temporarily by yourself, you'll die! How do you intend to get back to Springstar then, you stupid fool?!
[ He tries to avoid the whole I'm doing this to protect you ordeal but ultimately fails upon realizing it's not gong to go away just because he's trying to ignore it . It's hard to argue the sincerity here, but Childe feels repulsed— repulsed because there's a clear yearning to cling to being wanted, for someone to want to care about him to such lengths even if he can't stand the idea of being protected like this.
Of course, he wants this from Zhongli, of course it's part of what he wanted from Zhongli all along. But, like this—
(What good is it if you die... damn it!)
His grip on his weapons is so vicious that blood starts to splotch his gloved in areas of stress even as he struggles to keep his emotions in check. He needs to calm down or his discord is going to potentially tear it's ugly head. It's been a while since he's been truly departed from Zhongli beyond him being somewhere in Highstorm. How long will Zhongli be gone— No, this is bullshit, Zhongli isn't going anywhere because he's not Meridian!
He can't stop him like this, and he's not sure if he can guilt him. What's left after that?
. . . ]
Don't do this.... don't do this to me, Xiansheng!