[ he stays still when Rin moves, the light weight of her back against his all he needs to ascertain she's still there and doing what she needs to. he can't begrudge her any; this is miserable. whatever is happening, whatever is unraveling here - it had ripped something personal from her without permission and made her share it with a stranger.
and when he feels her body faintly trembling where her weight is leaned into his, the pressure increasing as she permits herself to relax back into him, his heart well and truly aches in response. he can't deny he has the urge to turn around and wind an arm around her or... something, but instinct tells him that wouldn't go over too well. that isn't the kind of comfort she needs when feeling vulnerable and rubbed raw, exposed. if he acknowledges it, it'll just make it harder for her, he thinks.
so the only thing he can give her is to pretend he doesn't notice her bleeding her pain (even if they both know he does), to be a solid support to lean on (literally, if not figuratively). it's not enough, is it. ]
ow :(
and when he feels her body faintly trembling where her weight is leaned into his, the pressure increasing as she permits herself to relax back into him, his heart well and truly aches in response. he can't deny he has the urge to turn around and wind an arm around her or... something, but instinct tells him that wouldn't go over too well. that isn't the kind of comfort she needs when feeling vulnerable and rubbed raw, exposed. if he acknowledges it, it'll just make it harder for her, he thinks.
so the only thing he can give her is to pretend he doesn't notice her bleeding her pain (even if they both know he does), to be a solid support to lean on (literally, if not figuratively). it's not enough, is it. ]