[ There's an immature spike of annoyance when Kaeya says they hadn't lost anything in their previous choices - were her precious nails worth nothing? This dryad is just a straight up, tasteless asshole, in that case. The conversation that follows doesn't improve her mood either, which results in her staying put where she is, glowering and simmering. Her knuckles press into her forehead, to hide her eyes, and to help herself focus.
She could make the decision to forget— she's done it before, even. Forgetting a single instance is a less steep price than the one she'd paid previously, but even still. How are they supposed to erase these memories? Think of them, share them? It's too risky. Anything precious to her, truly precious, like her time spent with Light, is riddled with secrets that none of these three are privy to. It's not the right time, not the right place. And after everything, after finally getting her hands back on her most precious person, she's not going to erase a second of him. ]
I'm not giving up any of my memory.
[ She huffs, stubbornly, frankly not caring that she may be cutting off anyone else who might want to discuss further on the subject, given the open ended nature of Gen's reluctance. No, she'd rather just kill the idea dead here. Without the option to kill someone, and with deleting memories out, that only leaves the mutilation. If it's for Light's sake, then she can steel herself. It can't be any worse, or any more life changing than cutting her lifespan down to a quarter, can it? If she just makes herself believe that... ]
So unless we agree to kill Amos, [ which definitely won't be happening given the responses in the room, much as Amos seems to be okay with it.... and much as she might be okay with it so long as she knew they could revive him later, tbh, ] Then cutting something off, that's our only option. I really don't want to... but if that's what it takes, then... then fine, I don't care anymore! I just want to live...
[ Her resolve is genuine, and perhaps it's a coping mechanism, the ol' trusty 'don't think about things that are traumatizing' schtick, but she's walked back her refusal to do anything on the account of the poison settling in more. They really will die here if they don't act quickly, and she's nothing if not someone willing to take a giant risk in a spur of the moment decision. So what if she has to live without a hand, without an ear? She can make herself believe that no price is too high for her goals. ]
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She could make the decision to forget— she's done it before, even. Forgetting a single instance is a less steep price than the one she'd paid previously, but even still. How are they supposed to erase these memories? Think of them, share them? It's too risky. Anything precious to her, truly precious, like her time spent with Light, is riddled with secrets that none of these three are privy to. It's not the right time, not the right place. And after everything, after finally getting her hands back on her most precious person, she's not going to erase a second of him. ]
I'm not giving up any of my memory.
[ She huffs, stubbornly, frankly not caring that she may be cutting off anyone else who might want to discuss further on the subject, given the open ended nature of Gen's reluctance. No, she'd rather just kill the idea dead here. Without the option to kill someone, and with deleting memories out, that only leaves the mutilation. If it's for Light's sake, then she can steel herself. It can't be any worse, or any more life changing than cutting her lifespan down to a quarter, can it? If she just makes herself believe that... ]
So unless we agree to kill Amos, [ which definitely won't be happening given the responses in the room, much as Amos seems to be okay with it.... and much as she might be okay with it so long as she knew they could revive him later, tbh, ] Then cutting something off, that's our only option. I really don't want to... but if that's what it takes, then... then fine, I don't care anymore! I just want to live...
[ Her resolve is genuine, and perhaps it's a coping mechanism, the ol' trusty 'don't think about things that are traumatizing' schtick, but she's walked back her refusal to do anything on the account of the poison settling in more. They really will die here if they don't act quickly, and she's nothing if not someone willing to take a giant risk in a spur of the moment decision. So what if she has to live without a hand, without an ear? She can make herself believe that no price is too high for her goals. ]